THE PLAN.

My Plan?

to get a djembe and dreads before the year is out.

wish me luck!

Fo' sho.

Next semester.
BOY OH BOY.
'glish x 2 and acting.
can it get any sexier?

Anger

Me? anger?

You bet your bananas.

I know im a bitch.

its not that big of a deal, but when im angry...hoo.

i wish i wasn't.

ive said things, done things, hit people with stuff, you know the deal.

but the most angry thing thats ever happened to me was with Edwin Cruz.

my first crush.

i was going over to his house to tell him i liked him, and i was greeted by the loving touch of a rake.

i remember that thing swinging above his head.

and man was he crying.

it freaked me right out, i ran away so fast.

and i think we stopped being friends after that.

My sister also has anger issues.

we used to wrestle on my aunt's trampoline, and she won back then.

but now, i could kick her ass.

i think the biggest anger feelings ive ever felt are currently happening.

but its not just anger.

its confusion, love and sexual frusteration all aimed at him.

i just wish he could be here so i could tell him exactly how i feel.

AUGH.

he just makes me so angry!

-Melody.

Lust

Oh, here's one of them that completely umbrellas my life.

I can't go to the store and pick out a new hat without thinking of sex.

I see a young boy and BAM. Immediately my libido is on the prowl.

people would be surprised to see the numerous amount of sex books I have,

Telling everyone about my fantasies, dreams, and thoughts about certain people.

most would describe me as a pervert.

but i think of it as a gift.

I mean, now my lovers and I can meet up it the bedroom when it comes to sex and desire.

maybe i was just born with too much testosterone.

but i can guarantee you that this didn't all just come up after my first sexual experience.

Oh no.

Man, when i was a kid, i used to make the barbies have sex, and i would get totally off on it.

and my ken that had a pseudo-wang would always get blow jobs.

but i didn't really understand back then.

I sure do now.

In the future, i plan on trying a few things out.

just to broaden my sexual horizon.

Maybe ill take up pole dancing. be a stripper for a day.

A CLEAN one.

Sex with any number of races of men, on many different continents in many different places.

Does this make me a slut?

Probably.

But i like to think of it as "Sexually Adventurous."

So what if i enjoy sex?

is it a crime?

well, I guess it is if he's older than 18.

But in half a year, i'm gonna be 18.

and then, the world is my oyster.

Love, Melody.

To The Fabulous Miss Olivia-Jayne.

Oh missus.

When you have a friend that you have numerous names for, you know she's special.

Bunny Martini, Tena, Captain.

And each has a special story behind it.

i'm sure there is so much ahead of us.

Oh captain, my captain.

you are a joy to be around.

i've never met someone so much like me.

We've spent nights killing ourselves on the kitchen floor, laughing about jerking off into cooking mitts and singing our favorite,ugly little tune.

Oh Rattigan, Oh Rattigan.

I love you.

our movie nights are to die for.

Even I envy us.

i love how we can be totally honest about anything and tell each other everything.

you are my best friend, dear bunny.

OJM, never change.

i absolutely ADORE you.

and never forget.

Leaverman or Elmont.

The opportunity is still out there.

Love always, Carlyle. Your first mate.

Waiting.

Wouldn't it be nice if it were summer?

instead of email, i'd wait for the phone.

And wouldn't it be nice if he were better?

didn't make me cry the whole night long.

I only wish that he were whining.

that only he instead of I, were pining.

Oh wouldn't it be nice.

Wouldn't it be nice if I could tell him,

all the silly things i'd love to say.

He'd accept it all and say he loved me,

instead of just ignore and turn away.

He used to kiss me with all his devotion.

i felt a flutter, i felt all emotion.

Oh wouldn't it be nice.

Maybe if i hope with all my might and wish upon the moon.

and maybe if I lie alone in bed and wait, he'll come home soon.

Oh, I miss him dearly,

I'd love for him near me....

Wouldn't it be nice.

you know, the more that my mind doesn't want it.

It only makes my heart decide to flaunt it.

but I SO do want it.

Oh wouldnt it be nice!